On Contradicton

for a couple of weeks, i've been passing by my blog, not knowing what to write... not wanting to write :) lots of events happened, and i donno where from to start :)

the truth is, you are the only reason am writing again :) the idea of that there are friends and people out there who are still reading, that some is still passing by my blog, although i haven't wrote a thing for more than two months means more than alot to me :)

a good friend of mine once told me that he writes what people wants to read, while i write what i want to write... and i just don't know which one of us is right :) each one has a different point of view, a different way of thinking, and a whole different personality :) but his words made me think of why am i writing in the first place... years ago, i just wrote to let go, just to feel a little bit better... i was the only one entitled to read my writings... my pen was my best friend, no one else was to know my secrets... but the situation right now is different... everyone can read my thoughts... anyone, in a way or another, can tell how i think...

i felt like i was contradicting myself... one of my rules was never to let the person infront of me understand the way i think or feel... i guess it was just to protect myself from those around me... the fact is, i still find it hard to trust anyone new...

i can't figure out why did i start this blog... was it because i wanted to share my thoughts with someone else, or was it just to exchange opinions and ideas... i have no idea... but what i know is, am not sorry i did :)