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Friday, May 05, 2006

On Contradicton

for a couple of weeks, i've been passing by my blog, not knowing what to write... not wanting to write :) lots of events happened, and i donno where from to start :)

the truth is, you are the only reason am writing again :) the idea of that there are friends and people out there who are still reading, that some is still passing by my blog, although i haven't wrote a thing for more than two months means more than alot to me :)

a good friend of mine once told me that he writes what people wants to read, while i write what i want to write... and i just don't know which one of us is right :) each one has a different point of view, a different way of thinking, and a whole different personality :) but his words made me think of why am i writing in the first place... years ago, i just wrote to let go, just to feel a little bit better... i was the only one entitled to read my writings... my pen was my best friend, no one else was to know my secrets... but the situation right now is different... everyone can read my thoughts... anyone, in a way or another, can tell how i think...

i felt like i was contradicting myself... one of my rules was never to let the person infront of me understand the way i think or feel... i guess it was just to protect myself from those around me... the fact is, i still find it hard to trust anyone new...

i can't figure out why did i start this blog... was it because i wanted to share my thoughts with someone else, or was it just to exchange opinions and ideas... i have no idea... but what i know is, am not sorry i did :)


  • At Saturday, May 06, 2006 9:03:00 PM , Blogger Diana said...

    hi Raindrop :) i'm really happy to c u around here again.
    i'd like to say that it's ok to let others know a little bit of how we think,people aren't really as bad as i thought,if you remember my replay to one of your earlier fact i like all the people who are around me now at uni...but i must keep in mind that no one is perfect :)
    i,for one,till now write just to let go,empty my head a bit,last night i had a very annoying buzzing in my head i couldn't sleep,usually writting get rid of the buzzing,but i was too lazy to get up and write.i write what i want,not what people want,this is what makes me feel releaved.

  • At Saturday, May 06, 2006 11:55:00 PM , Anonymous Anonymous said...

    hi Raindrop !
    just let it go !
    dont hide ur feelings !
    but if its a personal matter ! u should share it with ur self or with ur closest friend only !

  • At Tuesday, May 09, 2006 10:41:00 PM , Blogger Rain Drop said...

    hey diana :)
    i love your writings! i donno why, but i sometimes see myself in you :)

    we are lucky we've met such great people at uni... but what i fear is that this friendship won't last forever...

    most of us at uni are "study" friends, and a couple of years after graduation, every1 is going to be so busy, so tired, they won't even have the time to give us a call :)

    i don't know about us, branch officers... we had a gr8 time together... i can only hope that our friendship would have a happy ending ;) (although happy endings only happen in movies and kids stories;)

    thanx anonymous, but am still curious :) i can't figure out who you are! i'd really appreciate it if u'd tell me :)

  • At Thursday, May 11, 2006 12:25:00 PM , Blogger rowdyrascal said...

    Correct. Fear of losing friends is a major deterrent to making friends in the first place.
    But chill out.I have long been out of College. Yes, friends have withered away. But the closest have stuck by. The worthy ones are close. So do not worry.
    There r new ones too even if they r added at a very slow pace. They r also new relationships. Nature wld take care of changes in its own fashion.
    I know how U feel.All our freiends felt the same way. But nothing really is lost.
    But take heart. Everyday is a better day and a glorious opportunity for varied experiences.

  • At Thursday, May 11, 2006 12:39:00 PM , Blogger rowdyrascal said...

    With regard to writing- there is no right or wrong way of doing it. It is a matter of choice.
    Writing for others wld perhaps receive more accolades and appraisal and most importantly readership.
    But writing out ur thoughts is fun. It relieves and heals.It doesn't get commercialised.
    But then U might ask,"Why not write in a note-book in the privacy of ur room instead of blogging for the whole wide world to see?"
    Good point.There r like-minded souls across the globe. Sharing of opinions and friendships r a huge advantage of blogging.
    Thanks. All this is giving clarity and purpose even to me.
    I really feel sad when the blogs that I regularly visit r outdated. It is as if u haven't had a chat with a friend in a long time.

  • At Friday, May 12, 2006 5:29:00 PM , Blogger Rain Drop said...

    i really do appreciate what you wrote :) i don't think i would have ever met you if i didn't start this blog, and thus, although i still can't explain why did i start it in the first place, i am thankful :)
    it's nice to have you back :) i'll try to write some more whenever i get the time to :)

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