Am really sorry for the picture!

Don't ask me why, but this how i currently feel!!!

i know that i should be feeling "happy", i mean, i got the funding that i wanted for my project, bought the laptop i wanted with even a much better price than what i had in mind, and i should be celebrating my blog and my scarf's anniversary, and every other thing is going perfectly right, but i just don't!

i can't help but think of how much i've changed in those past couple of years, is it for the better or is towards the worse, i really find it hard to tell!!!

i feel like am turning in to this dumb boring "machine"... i hardly do contact my high school friends, and when we're hanging out together, i can't find find anything to talk about, simply coz it's either that the topic is too silly to the degree i can no more follow up with them, or coz i have know idea what the $^*% they're talking about!
i don't think am depressed, i guess am just feeling disgusted by everything, every1, and me... i hate the person am currently turning into, and i hate the fact that am doing things that i would never have considered doing a couple of years ago... but above all that, i just can't stand the way some people around me think!!!

(plz don't call to check up, i'll be fine in the morning, just had to let it out!)