Private Thoughts and Imaginations...

Thursday, June 21, 2007

The Point of NO RETURN!

i was talking to a very good friend of mine at uni today, and during our "vague" discussion, i realized that we both share the very same fear, although neither of us knew or had a clue what the other had in mind :)

it was the fear that we get when we reach a point where we can no more decide whether we should take a certain step in our lives or not, coz once u take that step, there is no way back, u can either win it all, or ur either going to lose everything :) and u have no idea how things are going to end... but at the same time, if u don't take ur chances, u r going to lose a lot, for such chances only occur once in a life time, and ur time is running out... and although u can never tell what might happen (or not) in both cases, u have to decide...

perhaps it's the fear of failure, or simply just fearing the unknown or what to expect... fearing that things won't end up the way we hope, or that they would end in a horrible way and destroy all ur hopes and dreams... that it would be the biggest mistake in ur life ever :)

although we didn't get to a final solution, and we still have fears, i can only say that i've enjoyed this type of what i call a "higher level" communication, i guess am lucky to have found such a friend :)

the thing is, if u were in our shoes, what would u do? would u take ur chances, knowing that u won't be able to fix things if they go real bad, or would u choose to skip, and wait in hope that another chance as this "might" occur later in ur life when ur ready to take it?


  • At Friday, June 22, 2007 9:34:00 AM , Blogger Tala said...

    what happened with the traveling plans? if i were you, i would go crazy on a vacation to a real cool place i always wanted to go to so i would go leave this place billi fee for sometime and when i come back, i know things will look different because i would have dreamt my life away enough =D,, especially if where i stand now looks vague
    listen check these two songs

  • At Saturday, June 23, 2007 11:08:00 AM , Blogger David said...

    Hello Raindrop! You have been gone so long that I haven't checked your blog in a couple of weeks. Well, I got the urge to look again and to my surprise you are back. :)

    Congratulations on your college graduation! That is a great accomplishment. I am sure you would like to rest for a while now. :) However, if you have the opportunity to go for a Master's degree, then I recommend you do it. I enjoyed being a graduate student much more than being an undergraduate. :)

    About the point of no return, are you by any chance talking about marriage? Well, whatever you are talking about, I hope that when you decide to take the certain step, that your decision will lead to happiness. :)

    Tala has a good idea: you should take a fun vacation to celebrate your achievement!

  • At Saturday, June 23, 2007 12:13:00 PM , Anonymous Hani said...

    It is well known that wherever there is more risk, there is a bigger prize.

    I think usually you will get a strong feeling about taking such a decesion. just follow what you feel about it. yet, expect the worst and hope for the best.

  • At Saturday, June 23, 2007 3:56:00 PM , Blogger Rain Drop said...

    taltool :) well, i am traveling on tuesday, but not to where i wanted ;) the visa to italy is going to take at least 3 weeks, and the only time my sisters r free is during this week and the next... (bye bye italy :( )
    thanx for the songs :)

    david :) it's nice to hear from u again! thank u :) am currently waiting to be accepted... (i hope that they'll accept me without experience ;)
    i didn't mean marriage, although it's another point of no return ;) it's just that i can't make my mind on what to do right now with my life, each step is going to lead me to a different place... and i donno what's best yet :)

    hani :) true! but there is also fear of losing it all ;)
    the thing is, i want more than 1 thing, but i can only take 1 single step this time, i can't have it all i guess ;)
    thanx for the advice, i appreciate it :)

  • At Monday, June 25, 2007 10:25:00 AM , Blogger David said...

    Good luck toward Grad School acceptance Raindrop! Maybe you just need some time to figure out what you want to do. Hopefully, a great experience in Grad School will help you to do that. :)

  • At Sunday, July 01, 2007 8:16:00 PM , Anonymous Samir said...

    welcome baaaaack!!

    I totally know what you mean. I think it's a part of growing up. I made peace with the fact that life is suppose to be confusing.. we just never noticed because of the "security" we had as children.

    It's not easy, accepting that life is more often out of our control.. we can try and do, and hope for the best.. then deal with things as they come :)

    It wouldn't be as interesting, if it were predictable ..

  • At Tuesday, July 17, 2007 1:09:00 AM , Blogger Rain Drop said...

    thank u david :D i still can't figure out what's the best thing to do, but in sha2 Allah i will soon ;)

    Samir, sometimes i wish if i could skip that part!!! it's killing me! but i can't deny that i can't wait till i know how my life is going to be like after a couple of months from now ;)
    all i can say is, life is really weird! things that u never imagine to happen or expect suddenly become a fact that u have to accept :)
    like u said, it keeps on getting more and more interesting ;) but i still feel like am living in an indian movie at the current time!

  • At Sunday, August 12, 2007 9:57:00 PM , Blogger rowdyrascal said...

    One almost misses the beautiful colorful picture due to the intensity of the post.Beauties. Keep it up. Am sure u wld be led to take the right decision by the One u believe in :)

  • At Friday, September 14, 2007 10:07:00 PM , Blogger Rain Drop said...

    hehe, i hope i will ;) (i still can't make my mind yet!)
    Allah kareem :D


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