Private Thoughts and Imaginations...

Saturday, February 24, 2007

Temporarily Out of Service...

I announce that this blog is temporarily out of service, I won’t be posting for a while…

I don’t feel like I have to give excuses, or that i owe any1 an explanation; for those who know me, know very well that I always have a good reason for my behaviors and actions.
I apologize for any inconvenience, but i also would appreciate it if you could accept my decision...

Sunday, February 11, 2007

Ever Felt Like Maruko?

My little sister used to be a big fan of Maruko, and we were all forced to watch it, but i mainly liked one thing about her, the face fault she had in reaction to embarrassment :)

last night, i was put in a very awkward position due to a huge misunderstanding, i never felt so embarrassed in my whole life, lol! i don't think that even Maruko has a face that could actually describe the way i felt :)

it really is funny, how fate sometime plays with us... like how some events happen at the very wrong time, and for u, everything seems to make sense at the moment, just to realize that it's completely the opposite :)

Yet, i do believe that everything, no matter how horrible it is, happens for a reason.... there is always a lesson that we can learn :) (even if we can't directly tell what it is!) ... part of what i learned was, sometimes those who care about u most, those who wish the best for u, and those who have always been there when u need, they do mean good when they advice u or when they give u a note, but i also do remember that one of my uni profs once told me, "if it ain't broken, then don't fix it!" i guess this too applies on us :)

sometimes, all we need is time... we might not be ready yet to accept a thought or an idea, or even a simple change in our lives.... sometimes it's better to give the person a chance to decide what he/she would like to do with their lives... we were created different, and each 1 of us has his own way of thinking, his own ideas and his own dreams, and that's what makes it fun to know other people, it won't be interesting if everyone thought about things in the very exact way!!! we're not copies of each other, and we shouldn't be, but we have to respect other's personalities and points of view :)

i also realized that the biggest debt u'll ever find urself in, is when some1 is being generously kind with u, coz u never know if u'll ever be able to do the same 1 day...

the point is, u can never change what happened... all u can do is lock it in a big box, try to forget, and smile :) life goes on... so should u :)

Friday, February 09, 2007

Valentine Cookies Party :D

One of the good sides of being a female blogger in jordan is that you can actually enjoy gathering with other great ladies while having fun decorating delecious handmade cookies and talking about everything, including nonsense :D

Last night, we all gathered at MommaBean's house :) i had to follow Kinzi, whom i discovered that she's sort of my neighbor, and was kind enough to show me the way (thank you very much, i really appreciate it :)

I was afraid that i might not mingle very well, specially when i hardly knew anyone, and i've never met them before, but as soon as i met Kinzi, and saw how sweet she was with me, i realized it's going to be so much fun :) and it was ;)

There, we met TetaBean (who reads our blogs ;), JiddoBean, BabaBean, JujuBean, JuniorBean, and ButterBean :) MommaBean told us the secret of the Beans family :D (which am not gonna tell ;)

i also got the chance to meet the sweet Rebecca, Kinzi) and her sweet little treasure ;) Oula Farawati and her cute Natalie, Salam (Um Zaid) and her 2 adorable kids, and Khalida :)

it was a weird mixture of women, we were from various ages, different cultures, variety of majors and back grounds, but we all had 1 thing in common, blogging :) (and our love for cookies ;)

Khalida and i had a nice little chit-chat, she shared me some of her life experiences, and it was really nice to know that she too is an engineer (which gave me hope that i might be able to find a job after graduation ;) she also made this beautiful duck and heart cookies :) (you really are talented !)

Oula Farawati made an adorbale little girl cookie wearing a cute skirt (i wish if i had an imagination such as urs ;), while Salam made an amazing frog :) the rest of us decorated stars and heart shaped cookies (what i wrote in the heart i made is our little secret ;)

The kids also made some cookies, but Zaid won the 3D cookies competition ;) JujuBean decided she wants to play "doctor" with me, she listened to my heart beats, measured my temperature and pressure, and gave me an injection :) but when she came to check my ears, she found out that i had no ears!!! she also decided that i have no hair at all :) it was fun convincing her that my ears and hair are (hiding), but she only believed me when she got to play "peek-a-boo" :) Jujubean also made me laugh when she looked at Kinzi and said "Mommy mommy, she has beautiful hair like i do!"

it really was fun to meet you all :) i had a great time, and i absolutely can't remember when was the last time i enjoyed my time this much :) thank you MommaBean for your hospitality, and am really sorry for all the mess we made :)

Wednesday, February 07, 2007

Am really sorry for the picture!

Don't ask me why, but this how i currently feel!!!

i know that i should be feeling "happy", i mean, i got the funding that i wanted for my project, bought the laptop i wanted with even a much better price than what i had in mind, and i should be celebrating my blog and my scarf's anniversary, and every other thing is going perfectly right, but i just don't!

i can't help but think of how much i've changed in those past couple of years, is it for the better or is towards the worse, i really find it hard to tell!!!

i feel like am turning in to this dumb boring "machine"... i hardly do contact my high school friends, and when we're hanging out together, i can't find find anything to talk about, simply coz it's either that the topic is too silly to the degree i can no more follow up with them, or coz i have know idea what the $^*% they're talking about!
i don't think am depressed, i guess am just feeling disgusted by everything, every1, and me... i hate the person am currently turning into, and i hate the fact that am doing things that i would never have considered doing a couple of years ago... but above all that, i just can't stand the way some people around me think!!!

(plz don't call to check up, i'll be fine in the morning, just had to let it out!)

Sunday, February 04, 2007

why i am not married yet!!!!!

Lol, i got this by mail, hope u'll enjoy it as much as i did ;)

To all my friends who are not married yet... You will agree with this.
MUM& DAD - this is why I am not married yet!!

1. The nice men are ugly.
2. The handsome men are not nice.
3. The handsome and nice men are not normal.
4. The handsome, nice and normal men are married.
5. The men who are not so handsome, but are nice men, have no money.
6. The men who are not so handsome, but are nice men with money think we are only after their money.
7. The handsome men without money are after our money.
8. The handsome men, who are not so nice and somewhat normal, don't think we are beautiful enough.
9. The men who think we are beautiful, that are normal, somewhat nice and have money, are cowards.
10.The men who are somewhat handsome, somewhat nice and have some money and thank God are normal, are shy and NEVER MAKE THE FIRST MOVE!!!!
11.The men who never make thefirst move, automatically lose interest in us when we take the initiative.


Friday, February 02, 2007

The famous “five things you don’t know about me" tag!

i thought i was safe, but seems to be it's revenge time ;) (tagged by Samir :)

1- The "L" word used to freak me out, now it's the "M" word ;)

2- I mainly live on sweets, i don't like meat, chicken or fruits much, and i really wouldn't mind not eating them at all :) (spare me the health tips!)

3- Am 177cm tall, and to me, high heels are much comfortable than flat ones, so it's not my fault if you're short, deal with it!

4- Am being "nice" coz i like being nice, not coz i want "something" from you, but if am being really mean, then it's coz you deserve it, maybe it's time you to ask yourself "why?"

5- i have a real bad memory, specially when it comes to names, faces, laws, and roads... It's been more than 2 years now since i started driving, the only roads i know are the way to uni, my high school, Um Uthaina, hardly 3abdoon, the airport, Swefieh (coz i used to live there) and makkeh mall :)

well, i'll leave the rest of the stuff to u to figure out ;) else, it won't be fun to hang around with me!!!

am tagging Tala (as usual :D ) Dar, Nar, Rowdyrascal and Yabco ;)

Thursday, February 01, 2007

Finally bought a laptop :D

thank you all for the advices you gave me, but i chose to get the toshiba satellite M100-222, since some didn't recommend HP much, and since MatLab and other pattern recognition and image processing softwares won't work with Mac, i figured out that the best choice left is the toshiba :) (although some didn't recommend it, but my sis has 1 and she never face any problems so far..) (but i still would have to pay a considerable extra amount of money to get an extra battery :( )
so far am happy with what i got ;) it's not heavy, and it's really fast :D hope it'll do for my project ;) (wish me luck!)